Newsletter March, 2002

MARCH, 2002

How Can I Not Believe?

Influenced by my son since 1997, I have been on the long journey of seeking and searching through Bible-studying, Sunday worship and the reading of other spiritual references. For three years I listened to many sermons and sharing, and finally was baptized on Easter, 2001. My journey of faith may be divided up into two parts: First, why I believe that God is the God of creation and Lord of heaven and earth. Second, why I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and our Savior.

As a high-school student, I read a poem in which the poet described the beauty of the night as he and friends enjoyed a boat ride down a famous river gorge of the Yangtze. In the poem the author wrote about the breeze, the moon and how he was reminded of the creator of all. I am certain that the ancient poet did not know who the creator was, although he put in words the beauty and wonder of creation, the power of the great creator and his love, righteousness and abundance. Only after I read the record of Genesis did I realize that this creator is the God of my faith. All goodness came from Him in the heaven for us who are on the earth. Indeed, Psalm 136 praises Him for having made the heavens by wisdom, made the sun to rule by day and the moon in the night, for His mercy endures forever.

Trained as an engineer, I like to consider new theory and ideas through inference and proof. However, the power of God cannot be analyzed and researched via a simple concept of logic. I admire Newton and Faraday, two great physicists of modern science. Newton discovered the law of gravity and Faraday the electromagnetic resonance theory. Few could surpass their great scientific contributions. Yet, both men were devout Christians. Once in awe of God's great creation, they realized the limitation of man. Through their experimental observations they derived the great laws of physics. But, they would never be able to explain why such laws exist. The fact is that the physical laws existed from the very beginning of God's creation. Those two first-rate scientists observed the mystery of God's creation and experienced God's power, thus became faithful Christians for the rest of their lives. I previously thought that science and faith are opposite to each other. After reading the book entitled "Science and Believing" I began to understand that science is only a small part of God's creation. Therefore, the first part of my spiritual journey can be summed up with Romans 1:20. All I can say is "how can I not believe" that God is "the God of creation" and "the Lord of heavens and earth".

Secondly, why do I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and the Savior of all? This is because of God's wisdom, power and great love. The Lord Jesus was born in a small town, raised in a carpenter's home, received no higher education and preached only about three years on earth. Yet millions believed in Him. His words are deeper than those of the scholars. If not the Son of God, how could He have given the Sermon on the Mount? In fact, even one with higher education cannot speak such heavenly wisdom with man's limited knowledge. Only the Son of God can, and that speaks of the wisdom of God. Col. 2:2-3 tells us that the mystery of God is Christ!

Every time I read about the crucifixion story, I feel a strong sense of sorrow and pity. I can hardly imagine how the Lord suffered such physical pain. Sometimes I worked in the yard. When a thorn got into my finger, it hurt so much. Imagine the pain of having a big metal nail pierced through your hand and your feet! It is not the pain tolerable by common men. John 1:14 says that the Word became flesh and dwelt among us. Christ is the Son of God, coming to this earth to become the Son of man in order to save us. He died on the cross with such a cruel death for our sins. If not the Son of God, how could he endure such cruelty? Then, He rose from the dead to ascend into the heaven. Only the Son of God can accomplish such a complete salvation for mankind, and to give us the hope of eternal life. This is indeed the power of God (Romans 1:4).

Finally, the whole New Testament is a book of love. I once tried to collect some verses of love to share with friends. Only to my dismay that the whole New Testament from cover to cover is filled with love. In the beginning we see the love of the Word becoming a flesh. In the end of the gospels we read the sacrificial love of His dying on the cross. Oh, love is most hungered for in this world. With love among men there would be no hatred, no war and no fear. With love from God to man we have salvation, life and strength. Love is the hope of all mankind, and the Lord Jesus brings us the love of God. Romans 5:8, "when we were yet sinners, Christ died for us and the love of God is thus manifested."

What do you say? How can I not believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and Savior of all? (Han)

I Believed

The process of my believing in the Lord can be described in three stages: The first (1967-1970) was during the time when I studied in Wisconsin. There I had my first contact with the gospel as I attended the Friday evening Bible study. I felt happy meeting with the Christians, although I had no contact with God. However, as Matthew 13 described, the seed was already planted. Twenty-five years later in 1995, my son was baptized. God used him to loose up the ground in my heart, and I began to get to know Him. We talked about this God of creation, and studied the Bible together when we could. The seed deeply imbedded in the soil began to receive water and nutrient.

The second stage started in 1997 as I began to attend Sunday services to obtain further understanding of the redemption of Jesus Christ. I saw my inner pride and tried to change myself. But my natural strength was so feeble; the more I tried the greater the pressure I experienced. In my heart I began to ask, "where can one find the source of this much-needed power?" As I knew more of the Word of God, I realized that the source of power is the divine life of God. Jesus loved us and became the scapegoat on the cross for us. He was raised from the dead on the third day, ascended into heaven to send the Holy Spirit, which is the life of God. Matt. 7:7, "Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find, and knock, it shall be open unto ye." After four years, the seed developed a deep root in the soil and budded, but remained in the ground.

With Bible reading and the meditation of the Word, I began to consider the matter of baptism. About one month before Easter, my husband responded to the call for baptism in a straight-forward manner. I asked if he had truly decided, while hesitated myself and could not decide. Suddenly, a flashing thought appeared, "O Lord, what would you like me to do?"

The next day, being Monday, I drove along I-4 as usual to work. As soon as I got into my car, I knew it was a totally different day from the normal. A brand new life with no bondage set me totally free. As I began my work, I experienced a power that led me on, so strong and irresistible yet very tender. I was able to concentrate on my work 100% with no distraction but unusual efficiency. Afterwards I understood that it was the presence of the Lord and the filling of the Holy Spirit. By the end of the day, instead of being exhausted as usual, I still felt the filling of this new life, refreshed and not tired at all. Thank god that this wonderful blessing led me to decide on baptism, for He let me experience His resurrected life. (Becky)